Blog 18: If you could do it all over again, would you change anything?

If I were to change my past, my actions, my reactions; what would happen to the person I am today? Despite how I feel, in regards to my choices, and history, I like the person I am today. I have days, like anyone one, I feel like there is no point to what I am doing, and am ready to pull out my hair, but its in those moments of complete weakness, and utter chaos, that God seems to show up in the most real, and powerful ways. He shows me that, even though my mistakes, hurts, and choices were not in His perfect plan for me, He can still use them for His glory.

Blog 16: What is your life verse?

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you" 

Declares the Lord "Plans to prosper you,

 not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."

This is the verse that I happened to open up to, the night I wanted to die. After coming home from youth group January 21st, 2009, with my note from God, in hand. I sat on the floor, opened my Bible, and read God has a plan for me! This is something I still struggle with, remembering, even today, from time to time. I want to trust this God, that I can't necessarily see, but I want to be in control of my life, and tend to hold on to my wants and desires. I have to constantly remember that God is in control, and knows where I'm going. He isn't going to hurt me, but I have to let Him move through me.