Surgery

Well Yesterday morning I woke up at 4 am got to the hospital at 5:30am and was in surgery by 7:30 am. I was at peace with the whole surgery, everything went well. Obviously I was nervous, but I felt very prepared, and comfortable going into surgery with the nurses and surgeons. Well I woke up after 4 hours in surgery and my parents weren't there and I couldn't talk. My first instinct was to begin signing to the nurses and doctor. I kept asking wheres my mom and dad? Whats going on? Trying to stay calm, I knew I had been in surgery, but I wasn't fully aware of what was going on. I couldn't focus on anything and my jaw was aching. They told me "We cant understand you" and gave me a piece of paper to write with, which helped a bit. finally 2 hours later I was carted into my room where I stayed all night along with my mom.

Well Everything was fine until last night. You must know I am Very afraid of shots. thats the only thing that worried me in regards to this whole operations. So last night The vein in my left arm must have clotted because they couldn't push the medicine through. I was already feeling overwhelmed with my lack of communication, because nobody seemed to understand what I was saying/meaning. Well they had to set another I.V. in my other arm, and So they gave me a shot to numb the area, and then stick the I.V. in after attempting to push medicine through my left vein for 20 minutes which burned!!! So that caused me to have a meltdown in itself, because I couldn't explain to the I.V nurse that the other nurse had already tried for 20 minutes before which also burned! So after getting over that, I was hungry, but my bottom lip was numb, and I couldn't eat anything with out it falling out of my mouth(I still can't actually LOL) and I began getting really sick from all the meds they had me on(they were afraid I was going to throw up, which wouldn't have been good with my jaw shut) and I got awoken every two hours to take mere meds. Lets just say that to sum it up the meds where messing with my head and I was feeling VERY emotional all last night over all the little things that were happening, everything seemed like a huge deal.

So I asked them to switch the meds to something with less side affects, and by this morning my head was clear, and I was able to think clearly. No I'm not putting up pics because I am VERY swollen and am staying at home for a reason =P but now that its over I hope everything will be fine(once the swelling goes down) Please pray for me, as my jaw is constantly aching, and The fact that I can't talk is still frusterating. I don't like not being able to communicate as I tend to speak my mind LOL and typing/writing everything means I have to get right to the point and I can't explain(which I also like doing)HAHAHA Thanks guys and I hope this wasn't too confusing to try and read my jabber haha