Thoughts

I was reading my journal the other days and I can see how much I've changed some of the change is good some needs improvement. But I look back and I remember what I was feeling on specific days and how because of those hard times, and joyful days my life was changed. It's a weird feeling looking back. I've realized I've lost some of the passion for worldly things I had and gained a new passion for Christ and His teaching. Much of my thinking before was based on me and what I was feeling and the fact that it's not all about me has hit me So hard. As much as I try I can't do anything with out Christ. I have NO POWER I don't know if anyone's seen the Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, but I felt like Peter for a while. I felt invincible, like I knew everything just because I had grown up in the church and because I know the Bible. But I realized I can have all the wisdom in the world and it doesn't make a difference with out having that relationship with Christ. Just like Peter in the movie, thought he knew everything because he had been the king of Narnia he had to remember it was Aslan who had given him that power and that with out Aslan, He had no strength.

With that in mind, I have felt the need to be a witness in my school, I believe firmly believe that my generation will either make or break America. As we continue to kick God further out it will only become more difficult, and I have felt a strong conviction to be a witness in my school. But Every time God comes up, I get nervous and trip over my words. Fear overcomes me as people look at me with judgmental glances. I want to be unafraid, no matter what happens. I want to shake foundations and see mountains move. Facing the Giants has been my example... I want that to happen in my school. But I need God to go ahead of me and begin moving the soil, and preparing peoples hearts, and I need courage to speak with out fear.

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the willingness to overcome it." -Shawn Morrison

So, If you remember please lift me up in prayer. I want to begin to shake spiritual grounds as I come face to face with the enemy and try and take back what is rightfullythe Lords, with Christ leading me on!