Leading

I think one of the hardest things when it comes to growing up is the sudden realization that people look up to you. I don't think its ever hit me so hard. The way I speak, act, dress, and even laugh at is all being watched, judged, and often mimicked. I'm still at that age where I want to figure things out and test waters a bit, but I also know I don't have that luxury. I'm learning to watch my actions more closely, and be aware of the outcomes on a higher level.

I so often look around and am amazed at the level of respect I am given, and the amount of leadership positions I am placed in, but other times I have to say, it honestly sucks, because so often I'm having to choose between friendship or leadership. But I also think this has given me a new found respect for those who are leaders. They have to deal with more than just the surface value of any situation, and it's not as easy as they make it out to be. I have been so blessed to be surrounded by gracious leaders who are constantly surrounding me in prayer and support. So I know I, for one, will be praying even harder for them, especially now.