Wrestling!

Last night I stayed up literally half the night, and most of the afternoon Praying and wrestling with the Lord trying to make sense of everything. I'm not going to say I dont need prayer because I definatly do, but this afternoon as I was praying I felt just a peace amidst this storm. I was sitting on my knees praying and I finally broke and started crying, I cryed out saying "I'm not moving or getting up until I KNOW that I know that I know that You are here! I will not move until this barrier I feel is gone!" and I didn't Finally I dont know exactly when but something broke and it was the most amazing thing, it was like God's presance surrounded me. I have never felt such peace and joy during such a difficult time. There are still problems that I need prayer for, but I KNOW God is here!! HE IS HERE!!! I'M NOT ALONE DURING THIS!!!! I wrestled until God revealed Himself to me, and when He did It was undeniable! So now please pray for me as I confront some problems with some friends that I know needs to end. My one friend is into ALOT of things that scares me because its very harmful!

On that note I saw the house we are buying today! If all things check out(which it should!) We will be moving in 3 weeks. I'm already packing. My room is about twice the size, and the house is incredible! Its got a HUGE yard, and The house is AMAZING. It wasDefinately a God thing =D I'm not sure about moving though. I'm leavign everything familiar in Bloomington, and moving to Brooklyn Park. New school, New area, and New people. Yes its only 30 minutes from Bloomington, but thats still further than before and will mean seeing my friends less.

PRAYER REQUEST!!! I'm going in to take my license test August 18th Pray I get it the first Time, and that I get a car(I have no money and am praying God provides one free, i know thats a big request, but God can do anything)
Pray For my upcoming surgery September 16th I will have to be at the hospital by 5:30am, and will stay overnight.
Pray that I find a job ASAP once we move as well

Thank You God for what you are doing!! and Help me as I deal with the upcoming future.

<3 you all and thank you SOOO much!!

Please pray for me!

What do you do when you feel like Life is spinning out of control?? Things you thought were ok suddenly aren't and you dont know what to do about it. Theres so much happening and I cant even begin to explain it. I dont know If I want to cry, yell, hit my pillow, or just sit in silence. I feel like I'm losing grip on things that should be so basic. But I dont know how to describe whats going on, or why I'm feeling this way.

I pray but at this moment I feel like God isnt hearing me. I feel like no matter how much I reach out to Him, He's not reaching back. I know thats not true, but thats how it feels. I'm at a point where I need Him more than anything, but I can't break the barriar and reach Him. I can't seem to break past my emotions and recognize Gods here, that He's never left me. I'm searching for a feeling when all I need is faith to believe He's here and working, but my faith is lacking because of problems I cant explain. I wouldn't normally write my problems like this, but I NEED prayer. I know I'm in a place where if I'm not praying Satan could easily place doubts in my mind about God, but I feel like my prayers aren't getting through tonight, and its a struggle to pray!! I know this is probally confusing to people, its confusing to me, but PLEASE PRAY that God will protect my mind, my heart, my family, and that all thats going on will be made right because at this moment so much seems wrong, and it scares me.

Bridge pictures. cont.

Yes she is sitting in the middle of the road =P

Staring into the distance

awww... cutee

Its spiderman!!!!

Relaxed pose

Sister fun!

My adorable sister sitting so poised beneath the bridge

LOL Kierra called my name and I turned around as she took this

Kierra took this one.... This is a mankin head we found down there already =P

I was really happy with how clear this one turned out since I was using my older camera and it tends to blur alot of the time

I took this one lol

Ok so I decided to go down to the railroad tracks near my house the other day, and take some photos for no reason in particular, and then my sister saw them and so we went down and I took photos of her =P So we had a fun evening just hangin out. I love photographing my little sister she is so pretty, fun, and easy to work with. =D So here are some of my favorite photos she and I took of us =P

Impressions

Well I love looking back and seeing how much I have changed through out the years, and I guess today was one of those days, especially with my friend Olivia over. We stay up most of the nights when we are together, we have been talking constantly, going shopping, and getting coffee(somehting neither of us need, but LOVE!!) which is such a vast chang from last year. We grew up together, but we hated eachother imenscly until this summer. I thought she was a know-it-all, and she thought I was stuck-up, But we have changed so much from those days and we have come to realize how alike we are, and we have become best friends through it.

So many of my other friends I have now it was the same way, I know my friend Rebekah will read this, but I'm going to say it anyways. I used to think my friend Rebekah was little miss popular, and that she would only cling to her group, because she was too stuck up, but Then I became neighbors with her through a series of events, and I came to realize she an amazing person. She has a heart of gold, Shes always there when you need a hand, and she is the most open person I know.

These are impressions I got before I even met these people, and I finally got to know them and I realize they are some of the best friends anyone could have. If I could say anything to people it would be dont let your first impressions ruin a possible friendship with someone, they could end up being the coolest people you could ever meet, but because you didnt give them a chance you never found that out. And that would be a true loss!

pics of Weekend

Red

Sam trying to hide in the background and Susan holding up Compassion packets, she was in charge of on of the booths for awhile

Susan... I LOVE her eyes!!!! She was soo cute throughout the weekend LOL

Sylas, my adorable nephew

Sylas again =D

Skillet

Encouragement

My Niece!!!

Toby Mac

Skillet

Me HAHAHAHA

Me and my Boyfriend George

This last week I got the oppurtunity to go to WI and visit my brother, sister, and there family, For a week.( Above are the pictures) While I was there I went to Lifefest. Amidst all the family fun, and Great bands like Skillet, David Crowder, Red, Toby Mac, Barlow girl, Aaron Shust, Pillar, Phillips, Craig, and Dean exc... I found myself in the prayer tent on Thursday. While I was there I met a lady named Chaun, a local pastor, she asked if I would like prayer, of course I said yes never can have enough, and Oddly enough I found my self telling her all about my Brother Christopher, My eldest brother who has walked away from our family, and the Lord, Well her son had recently comeback from a similiar expierence, so she knew what it was like and she was able to pray into the situation from experience. After she prayed I was crying, and for those who know me well I NEVER cry in front of people, anyways I pulled myself together, and we talked I asked her her testimony, and she shared it, and then she asked me mine, and I found myself telling her things I wouldnt tell the average person regarding my past. Well when I was done I told her about the different ministries I'm involved in/starting up from Good in the Hood, Friday night witnissing, Worship leading, Love in Action, And My Youtube ministry, and she finally asked me my age and she was in shock. She asked to see my ID because she didnt believe I was only 16. She had guessed 24(I Know I was SHOCKED too... I've never been guessed to be that old =P) and she was so encouraging and a huge blessing to me. We exchanged email adresses, and will keep in touch, but she didnt have to do anything, just listen and encourage me and I was so blessed throughout the entire week! That made the most impact on me. So Let that be an encouragement to you all during your busy weeks encourage someone. One word doesnt seem like much, but it could mean the world to someone who needed to hear that one word.