
I always looked at it as a weakness.
1.) A power play people used to get sympathy from another person. Especially as a girl, I watched as so many people would cry and get attention from it, and I always thought it was stupid, the manipulation that was involved.
2.) Vulnerability. I've always hated being vulnerable, and When I cried people could see my thoughts, and how their words affected me, and I refused to let anyone have that much power, so I never would cry in front of other people. I considered my ability to be strong, and not cry as a strength after a while. I wouldn't let people in on that emotional level.
Recently I have to say I have been learning that not all crying is wrong. I'm not saying I'm going out and bawling my eyes out every second now, but I don't get as angry at myself, or castigate myself when a tear rolls down my cheek, genuinely.
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